My Fight
Today I started teaching spanish!!!!
That was good. Although today was a hard day to start… feeling blue and wondery…
A couple weeks a go I asked to be in the coreography team in my church, but my leader told me she would like to have me somewhere else where I can be more useful. After that I got to watch a coreography practice, and realized why she said that. They are all kids.
Is not like when I danced before, where we were older and more serious about it.
Anyway, I have been feeling very frustrated about not being able to dance.
I really feel like I miss a part of my life. It hurts almost as much as being 24 and not have a profession. I want to take classes.
The day is over and as I walk back home I realize I have amazing friends I didn’t know I had.
I spent so much time traveling that when I was at home I felt like I didn’t belog anymore.
This time, I knew I wanted to do one thing getting back from the US: Spend quality time with people.
I missed that SO MUCH while I was in the US…. I also realized I don’t have a lot of people who really know what’s in my heart. What I am made of. There is people who see you only through your limitations and don’t take time to hear you, and see your determination… And I was tired of feeling that way.
I am also so thankful for people like Daddy Gary, Cyndi and Lou Richey, Grandpa, Grandma, Linda and Phil Gunderson, Sue, Jerry, Kiera, Matthew… Look at that!!! How much people who have been there in the perfect place of my life.
I can feel how this year is so much different.
But I am still nervious and afraid. I still feel like I am not capable…
Although, I’m aware that, even knowing how I feel…
the moment I make an honest desicion over my heart to just step forward, I will realize how unreal fear is.
While in the US, I told myself (or maybe He did): Fight pain with Joy.
You have taken on quite a project - good for you! I always admire one who can put their thoughts into writting - that is not my strong gift. You are right on with fight Pain with Joy - as I was reading the verse that came to mind with “the Joy of the Lord is our strength” !
Love you - Grandma
The Lord’s timing is always perfect, unless we go outside of his will. Waiting, and dealing with pain through Joy is what He wants us to do. Sometimes we learn more from the waiting than we do by the action. Wait Upon The Lord!
Love You!
Grandpa
Dear Ines, You are one of the most competent young women of my acquaintance. I’m so privileged to be among your friends. I know how uncomfortable new endeavors are, but I am cheering you on in this. You will dance again. Love, Cyndi